Life in a Shell ~

     by Kristos (Ruben Payan)

Slow am I, creature of land, victim to wings

Vulnerable, prey to things that fly, the hunted

Playing against odds, armor I was robbed,

Weak I hide from my enemies,

No weapons to defend

Mercy on me, given shelter from tree

Oh why me… Restless nights with no sleep,

lonely days I weep, I cry, I scream, take me away!

Ball of chain, prison bar view, I construe

Limbs were not part of my plan,

Butterfly wish I demand, caterpillar dream

I know god would never forget,

All created, Still I respect, Mission in life, is it death?

Beg for forgiveness; please end the test you are teaching

Graduate me, the survivor’s master’s degree

My answer still does not come, run, hide

Tired am I, Denied, Thirsty for compassion

Wishing well Dry, Left me to die, Lord take me

Crawl by your side, Loyal am I Awaken,

calling me forth, branch of my friend

Climb, climb it’s time, Caterpillar it’s time

Mud compressed body, warmed path I follow

Map of Stars align, in code Exert all the power I bear,

Forced to be still

Put in this Shell of helplessness, against my will

Last patience cell is reviled, Mother time stops…

Mother time begins, Paralyzed, I listen,

Cracking Popping, Weight is lifted,

Lighter and lighter I become

Pounding of my heart, native drums

Transformation my calling, all sing to me,

King Exposure to light with a wing,

Patterns of color Spread, umbrellas for rain,

extensions of me Hanging of drapes,

for this world to see Butterfly Dream